minority becomes majority!

You never sleep

2010-10-19T08:16:00.003+08:00

God never sleeps, he always listen.

Dont try to mould God's standard into your mindset. Mould your mindset to God's standards.

Amazed how little things matter and not always the big things in life. Am i willing to be the one to do all the small things and if i am not recognize by people, or even people take credit, would i still do. I am very encouraged by Andrew, the bible character where he recognized God' sovereignty in his life and he knows God is real and he knows the urgency to share about God's to people where he shared to his brother immediately when he saw Jesus.

Andrew never belittle the small roles he did like he believes that the 2fishes and 5 loaves can feed 5000 people.

Haha, i felt that God is training me to be like that. In Melbourne, where i am alone with Him, not much people around me unlike in Singapore. I see my heart really humble towards God. During this period of time, you let me see more and more of my weakness which i never really pay attention. You dont condemn me but never me realized the need to depend on you more and more. Lord, help me to see my breakthrough in sharing about You, about my stronghold, about be holy in You, in my prayer life.

God, you really love me: You showed me 3 nice rainbows in different situations! starry sky, Sun rays etc! I am proud of what you showed me! I believed not many people able to see what i see..

Most importantly, u use me through my facebook! having someone to be encouraged by my faith and asked me to pray for him! You used me to ask him to go back to you!

So many things to thank you!

Lord, please help me now to concentrate to do my project! wahaha

Forgive. Grow. Princess

2010-07-21T15:42:00.004+08:00

Was rather upset with my uncle! He made me cried. Uncle and aunty said that i am not mature, need to grow up. Yea, i cant deny that i need to grow up. However, if everyday people say to you almost everyday, how do you feel? I felt that they dont trust me, if they nag at me almost daily, how to have room to grow. Now i understood the feeling of giving people space to grow and trust them. We are to nuture people and not to control them. I realized that i made this mistake of controlling people and not nuture them in the past. Thank God that you forgave me.

Wow, when come to me forgiving people, i just think of the hurts i have from them. Sure, its easy to dislike people and hate them. Have to be careful in our thoughts, if not hatred,dislike, things negative can come in. Well, candace reminded me that when you dislike someone means you dont not love God enough. But i do love God, well i have not go deep enough to his love. I will keep trying to grow, to obey. But i am not going to use my own effort only. God, I am coming to you vulnerable- with a need and a honest heart- I am rebellious etc, uncle and aunty disliked my attitude.. God help me! pls!

For now, i am going to forgive my uncle and aunty. Through these, i realized that communciation is super important. sometimes, seriously i found my intentions, thoughts and comments good. But, the tone to deliver was bad and it leads to anger, miscommunication, mistrust etc.

God, in my mist of trying, let me not be tired in doing good and to give up. I am going to perserve so that my faith will increase and the growth of my character. But God, please dont test beyond my limit. Through my weakness, it proves my reliance to God but this doesnt demerit who i am. I am a wonderful creation of God.

There's one prayer that i learnt that i need to make everyday- God, i know that it is the truth that I am wonderfully and fearfully made by you and you love me deeply. There is nothing else to make you love me more or less. Lord, let me not know this truth, but understand it and internalize it into my heart and let all the lies telling me that i am not good enough to flee in your name, Jesus Christ!! Lord, i am being pursue by you daily and i am a princess. :)

Relationship with Maker, Mum and bro!

2010-07-12T15:11:00.005+08:00

Pic with mum and bro with my web cam!

One day after my bro and mum went back home to Spore after 2 weeks in Melbourne. They are great support to me in adapting my life here in Melbourne. Initally when they came, i wasnt happy as i wanted full independent life in Melbourne here. I was wrong about myself being adapt well independently. God just know me well thus he got my mum and bro to accompany here. Love them and treasure them. Was abit rebellious to my mum but i knew she loved me lots though sometimes she dont show. She saved alot thus i am able to be in Melbourne. I want to be a filal child where i study well and improve my attitude to show my mum and dad. Well, this can only be done with God! I told God umpteem times that i need the holy spirit to help me..

I am so convinced that i am in Melbourne to grow my relationship deep with God. In 2 the 1: 11- With this in mind, we constantly pray for you that our God may count you worthy of his calling and that by his power he may fulfill every gd purpose of yours and every act prompted by yr faith. Amen for that verse, God is the ultimate one with great authority. I want to be worthy of his calling in terms of i want to be more like Jesus. convinced that by this verse, that why i want to be mature in God, then he can fulfill his will in him and then in v12- We pray this so that the name of our Lord Jesus may be glorified in you and you in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ. Yes, God to glorify in my life. Not based on myself but with God's grace.

Another reason why i am sure God wants be to grow in relationship in Him is because i read the book captivating. God prompted me in the heart to grow my romance with Him and to understand my make up as a woman and to really be secure in Him and not look for romance, care about how ppl look @ me. I am who i am..

2nd day in melbourne!

2010-06-27T19:39:00.003+08:00

In melbourne right now!

Now is 9.53 melbourne time, it is still so early.. So carefree here till i feel bored somehow. somehow i miss spore! Have to keep my heart, mind, spirit in line with God's word and pray more and more.

I am thankful that God speaks to me here and there when i am in mel. Firstly: He remind me of his convenant with me with a very very very beautiful rainbow! secondly: He kinda of know i am fearful of communicating with austrailian and my uncle. So he reminded me to fear him only and that whatever i do, i should please Him and that is enough!! He also remind me about my identity in Him. Situations just prune my character but not determine my character.. Amen.

Now listening to the song- Oceans will part- so reminded aout God's plan in my life and i miss service!

Thirdly: My auntie and uncle loved me deeply, they celebrated my bro and mine's belated bdae. Its just a simple bdae cake and bdae sond. but it is the heart that is so loving.

Fourthly: I learned about servanthood spirit from my uncle's neighbor. This spirit is to love ppl with his all. He is such a humble man and he never says no to ppl. I pray that he says yes to jesus one day. I saw that friendship evangelize is gd in melbourne here. I shall adopt that and they can see my life..

Fifth: Blessed with shopping.

God, i lift up my stay in melbourne to you! In yours hand. You are my all.

God, i was aliitle upset about the ess, dont understand why nexus didnt flood and rp didnt hit 42.. we trusted u le and we prayed. God pls speak to me about. o rlly wana know why..

Experiencing God's power tangibility

2010-06-02T22:41:00.004+08:00

I felt that since 25th of May to lst of June- I experienced God's power tangibility and he anwered many of my questions.

It been awhile that you touched me tangibility, indeed i seek u, i will find you. You are indeed faithful.

It been a long time when i was negative and i kept crying to God.

One hard truth i learnt before i stopped being negative was that I am really a child of God where no one can fight and snatch the position of mine unless i deny it. The past failures, the past of being judge by people, of insecurities, of not allowing people to speak into my life are all sarcificed under the blood of Jesus. I am really really really made new.

I am burden for people who yet to be set free.

THIS POST TO BE CONTINUED

Renunication

2010-05-25T02:06:00.002+08:00

Learnt a new word from jolene- Renunication is repositioning my heart for God, throwing away earthly things for God!

26 days in Singapore.. Help me to reposition my heart and strategies the way u want it, God.

Into your hands, it makes sense

2010-05-20T00:56:00.003+08:00

This whole week are questions about identity in God, priority questions, value questions.

Sometimes you just need to be utterly honest with yourself, not trying to defend yourself. It seems to make sense why i am doing what i am doing.

With all I am:

Into your hands, I commit again.
With all I am, For you lord,
you hold my world in the palm of your hands
And i am yours forever
Jesus, i believe in you, jesus i belong to you
The reason that i live, the reason that i sing with all i am
I walk with you forever you go, through tears and joy, i trust in you
I believe in all of your ways, your promises forever
Jesus, i believe in you, Jesus i belong to you
The reason that i live, the reason that i sing, with all I am

I will worship you (7x)

This song lyrics is just sing of my heart.

As i was listening through my prexmas testimony on how God has changed my life- I am amazed by you, Jesus. All the testmonies that i have testified is really all about you. No one including myself can draw yr credit away. Praise you Jesus! Who on this earth will come and pick me up and say u love me.

Who will teach to turn my wrong ways to the right ways to live my life. My life that focus in showing the strong side of me when i am not, in trying to survive in this competitive jungle. My ways of proving self esteem all redundant when you simply love me.

Have i forget the lst love in you? Why when you really love me, I still complain. Jesus, I want the full life that you have exchanged your blood for me. I am holy discontented!

The truth- we have eyes to see, ears to hear, but we fail to do. The fact is God has offer so much opportunities for us! Live at the Karos moment, lead by the spirit of God. Spirit birth spirit. Another truth, we mayknow the truth but notheart of commander. Bring me deep to know you, when i know you, it is easy to live a maximise life. God, let me know you beyond the pages of bible. Let me know you! Thats me. Father, look at my heart.

Bring me (Action) deep, Jesus. That my heartfelt prayer. Amen

God's will

2010-05-16T19:39:00.005+08:00

Wow, now i am quite free where i go online more often where i go facebook, go msn! wow, breakthrough. I realize it is not my lifestyle but maybe a way to connect with ppl. I am a person who loves pen and paper more and chat and meet up face to face.

One thing that touches my heart as i go to church service is God speaks to me about what i doing is all for God's will, something that i focus on the product and not the reason why i am doing. I am kinda of happy to find back the why! I really want to walk close with the holy spirit, guide me God!

Was taking about an hr to digest an article that Leanne sent to me about the 4 questions that lead to Godly character.

The first question is identity question: who am I? I have heard this question many times, however i would waiver about my identity here and there. I was questioning myself but why? In fact, I have never really doubt that my parents are not my real parents except when i was young as i was brought in by the dramas about doubting my biological parents. If people were to ask me how sure that i am my parents real child, i would use my life to bet on it.

Why am i so sure? Simply because there are proves. I can go and check the dna and i looked like my parents and i know they love me deep deep! When i knew that i am my parents' child, the way i relate to my parents would be different, so confident that they love me wherever i am!

Same thing for knowing my identity in God. I will be comfortable in God's identity, I'll do whatever it takes! God has made me for a purpose but not anyhow "pop" me! Arent you feel love? I feel so privileged and loved. John 15:5- Jesus say: I am the vine, you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit, apart from me, you can do nothing.
Precisely, you are the vine, you are my oxygen. I exist for you. We need to know our identity and trust Jesus.

psalms

2009-11-03T15:26:00.003+08:00

Lord, your word stands! Psalm 19:9 – the fear of the Lord is pure, enduring forever. The ordinances of the Lord are sure and altogether righteous.
Fearing you is pure and lasts forever. Wow! Psalm 19:10 -This is even more precious than gold, they are sweeter than honey, than honey from the comb. They are more precious than gold, than much pure gold. Wow, so precious!
Psalm 20:7-8 – Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God. They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm.

wow, stand firm not by might, by power, but by u, Lord.

I just read a newspaper on an attack in Pakistan. Many people died, Lord i still believe that yr hands are not to short to see and you say that u will go against enemies against yr ppl and you love the poor. God, continue to work in em. Let the rich help the poor. God, i m indeed privileged!

Lord, give me the love and compassion for people. You are the truth, way and light.

God, i wana pray for my younger bro.. Lord, you seen him go tru so much le, God let yr hand outstreTCHED To him. God, speak to him and let the holy spirit convinced him so that he will not have self- destructn. Lord, let my mother has a gd hoilday, let her go w/o worries. I pray that i will have the responsibilities to take care of the household and balance. Lord, ease my father's burdens.

Actions to change

2009-07-08T22:48:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, we wana changes and breaktru.. But our actions must be larger than words. Lead by the spirit and not flesh. I think if we fail to breaktru, we shldnt give up, we shld look to God and repent and gg back to Him as He is gracious and he still wana to use us. His plans will not stop even when we fail Him. Lets how wonder He is. We need to change our mentailty. Gof forgives me, and help me to be lead by the spirit. I need you.

Marina Barrage

2009-07-06T23:17:00.002+08:00

Today is relaxing day for me.

i had good rest today where i woke up about 915am, then i taught tuition from 930 to 11am.. its quite a gd time with my tuition kid, jaslyn. Her PSLE is cuming, i have to plan lessons well and to guide her. May wisdom be with me. Teaching is always a test of patience to me.

After tuition, i am too tired as the last week, i had been always sleeping @ 2am. then i went back to sleep till 1230pm and then i ate lunch- chicken feet cooked by my dad! wheehee! followed by an ice cream! wheehee! i was still sleepy.. but i have to meet ruth @ 330pm. so i pray to God for strength! then after i bathed, i was refreshed. its amazing! then i prayed to God for 45min.. its refreshing. God spoke to me about trusting in Him and have confidence in Him..

went to marina barrage! its really nice! its amazing how Singapore created the dam. Ruth and i went for the tour and it was amazing. we took many pics.. especially jump shots! the structure of marina barrage is nice where there is a big slope for u to walk up. i will upload pics soon. haha. many ppl flew kites there, its so cool. it is so relaxing.

The best part was we had shepherding @ marina barrack @ an open space.. so close to the nature! and close to God.. i love it so much! its so much to shepherd in nature rather than shopping more. U can hear the sound of the nature. I taught ruth of the work of the holy spirit! wow, God is almighty where with not by might, power but the power of the holy spirit can call down a mighty mountain Ie: Mount Everest to a level ground infront of me! i just so awe! Zc 4:6-7. which man can do so? Only God! Only holy spirit can change ppl's heart and growth will happen! I am so looking forward to spirit filled week! Then we took time to pray in the spirit and pray for ourselves. Nice! it about depending on holy spirit. its a memorial experience! i wana haf shepherding in nature. I love nature.

Hmm, then we headed for dinner @ just acia as my sheepy wana eat.. haha, when we were in the bus, we covered our nose coz of strong smoke smell.. haha, then this bus driver saw us and stared @ us and we kept laughing. we enjoyed eating! then we played monopoly deal! haha, ruth learned fast and she won the game!

I m so glad that yen see decided to go for membership class! Yen see, i m really proud of u to make the decision to wana obey God. God honor yr heart! I m so glad God spoke to u! Glory goes to God. So blessed!

Xmas -The Gift

2008-12-13T23:56:00.005+08:00

Click on the image to see the details....

Xmas is about God's love! Come and experience it.Xmas is more than the magical feeling in the end, getting gifts and be joyful for the moment.Let God transform us and experience his love forever! Whoever who read this poster.Look many times and make a decision to want to make your xmas a special one. I am one of the transform product by God!

God bless u!

Rp gals cg 20ppl!

2008-04-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

today is 15th april!
so long didnt blog le..
decided to blog..

God is great! so excited that Rp gals cg is going to starbust!! each person one convert, we will haf about 20 ppl in cg!! Never estimate wad God can do. God haf being gd in providing resources in terms of ppl open heart and responsive contacts!
i cant wait when i learn to put God n ppl lst, God gg to change my heart..More souls for God. I wana be die hard fan 4 God!!

6 weirdest things about me or something that u all dunnoe!

2007-10-02T10:46:00.000+08:00

Thank you abigail for sabor me ah.. haha

Great to know 6 weird things about you!

1) I always like to tell people this about me: sleep like dunnoe wad!

When i sleep, i sleep till very horribly.. my blankets, my pillow and bolster would be on the floor and unknowingly, i would roll to the floor to sleep. And happily, i would b awake at the middle of the night to go back to my bed. When i slept especially last time, i would lift up my legs to 90 degree and cross my legs. Thenn every morning, ,y mum would slap my legs and scream at me and i would b awake..'

2) People cant stand dirtness sometimes, but i can.
I would go and smell my smelly leg.. i think sometimes it do not smell as bad-a unique smell.... i am unique right..

3) dun judge teh book by its cover
I may look like a strong woman but i am just like any woman.. and i can cook, do houseworks..

4) Like washing toilet
why? coz it is pleasant to c the toilet clean and it lets me reflect thins! but now lazy le..

5) i can bring a man down.
If i were to fight with a man bigger of my size, i may not lose.. a 50-50 chances. i am strong. i have strong leg power.. and dun wana lose.. shock?

6) I do not get touch by touchn shows easily
woman would cry easily when they c romance movies, i have a hard heart for such things but i like romance movies. when i am young, i dream alot about almost everything!

then i shall sabor ppl from my unit to write about their 6 weird things about yourselves. write in beyong blog. all those that have blog in beyond.. pls write yar. those never write, will have forfit ah....haha!

tHANKFUL.

2007-09-26T01:23:00.000+08:00

i wanted to write my blog - coz very tired and know that if i write my tots in the notebk, i will fall aslp... and then my elder brother came home liao.. then have a small cute quarrel.. haha.. That how we communicate..

I have many thins to give thanks when i think of GOD. No 1) My parents offer me mooncake to bring for yesterdae mooncake festival.Was touched. Generous ha.. But during d celebration, when we went for strolling with our lanterns- the mooncakes are in Jacob's place and hor it locked, no key, cant go back to take mooncake.. i heartpain 4 d mooncakes.. as didnt finish them.

2) My workplace.. d ppl, d environment..

3) That i am not lack in anythin-have food to eat, clothes, entertainment that youngsters have...

4) That i m God's child... then i was once lose but found..

5) Opportunity to learn to b patience wif my mother... Really understand that YOU wld just let mi and my mum get closer unless i learn to love her.. Just like yesterdae i told myself tt i wana b nice wif my mum but once she is irritated, i got irritated. And, i tot to myself, GOD i m tryin but y this happen. Must breaktru this intial stage --of enduring wif my mum b4 moving closer wif her.

6) That i have newspaper to read..

yesterdae, read the bible..in 2 cor 6:1-2. About not taking GOD's grace for granted.. that is so true. It acts as a reminder for me...I pray that it would be rooted in my heart...
In 2 cor 3-13.. It talks about paul's sufferings.. just like what we suffer daily.. such as troubles,sorrowful etc.. Life has gd and bad things in life.. It really not easy to live life.. I tot that once we are born, we have to care about many things and take responsibilty...Difficult, that why people ar etired to be people or they are monotone about their life.. and just one to care for themselves...so GOD comes in to lessen their burdens..

GOD u are just amazing when JESUS is man and he set good example.. PLS continue to fall yr character in him.

GOD comes in my life more..
Let me not care 4 myself, love more.....

I m a secure perSon coz i have GOD!!

OH yar, just like went walk walk wif my lantern wif x2. My lantern has a heart shape that is created thru the accidental burnt.

Thankful that i am able to untie a knot in my heart when i had a small little quarrel wif some1.. i m able toforgive and b reminded of yr goodness.. amen!!

Life at spore sports council

2007-09-14T08:35:00.000+08:00

This week is my third week of attachment at spore sports council. GOD has always blessed me in the area of my work. So far never encounter any really super bad experience. I am attached to the youth sports development.

My division is lead by Bervyn. He is a cool director, the best part is he is a christian. cool right. the best part is behind. He leads the team very well, different from the traditional way while leader has the most power. He joned us for gatherings and meals. He would joke with us and understand us. He makes me realise that alot of times, we ourselves can change how are the things we wanted. He puts all effort to do well-has a spirit of excellence. He is also a visionary person, he is someone who knows clearly the goal of what he is doing. My department is a youthful department.. nice people to work with. Through the leadership of Bervyn, it makes me feel that working world is not scary. It is still your choice. He is someone who breaks the traditional and reflects upon what is the right thing to fo, while others just follow, and things would be rigid and that why spore is know for LAW BY LAW. Nothing beats human relationship in the workplace.

Oh the best part is that when i went in the work place, there are 3 people form our church. Cool right? and one of them is my usher friend, Jia Dai from uni side. Initially, i question why her? Then last week we went running together. Then on wednesday, i just went to her cubic and we just started chetting. Then we understand each other better and know each other difficulties. Then i found that certain part of her is like me. As we were talking,i was thinkn that GOD sent her to encourage me and visa versa.

In the workplace, so far did more of research, collating results.. quite mandate.. As i was reflecting.i told GOD before that i did not want to be some1 who is result driven and please man. And, GOD is testing me in this area and whether i will still be humble to do these work and be faithful and trust HIM. So far, have being faithful. yep.

Stilling tryin to build friendship in my workplace though not easy.

I m back again to update my blog.

Hmm, i feel that GOD puts in this attachment is to teach me GODLY leadership. Really amazed how GOD uses my boss. I was chatting wif my christian colleagues and realized that to outreach in the workplace--best method is our own life..

Really wants to treasure my time here at the workplace. I yearns to continue to be real in the workplace.. yeap!

Upload time!

2007-09-03T21:39:00.000+08:00

20 mins b4 10pm, so blog loh and hor have to wait for "PRECIOUS" kai sze's phone call. Hope she call by then, if not dun care, i go bathe..haha!

Why blog, coz ace says wana noe mi more... Is blog useful ah? i still cant convince myself. Whoever see my blog, pls convince me why i shld blog and msn.. these are d 2 thins i seldom do. If can really help in serving GOD, then u all must keep askin mi do these things.

Hmm, today Monday, i did have a little monday blue. Why? Because, felt that i m away from God. So i knew i must do somethin, so i spend my lunch time with God. Read the bible, n in cor 5:11-14, it says that sth like i shldnt live for myself since it is Jesus that die on the cross for me and i shld live for me. I myself is always confuse now and then de. I juz really have to get out of my comfort zone, then i will grow. Tot that now i am a 1 yr 8 mths plus christian.. my speed of growth is slow.. then i remembered what Pastor Ben say, if u are a 10 yr christian, but dun b a christian of 2 yrs.

I pray that i would love God more and people. I always ask God, do i love him? Then i would say no, coz i dun love his ppl enuff. I also ask y he chose mi as a leader. Sometimes, wish tt i juz a member then can act blur.. haha. But, i responded on saturday that i really want to be the minority and stand up for the world. So, will continue the journey. I always remind myself that i have go through process, no short cut. Whoever see my bog, must give mi oil to add ah..to jia you..

Hmm, why do i not thankful to God enuff? For my wonderful parents who always do hsewk for me, let mi gO out for church.. though always say i KPO. Haiz,sometimes, when i frustrated, i 4got to give thanks and focus on my situation. I realized, in order for family to breaktru, i have to breaktru.. Haf to get out of comfort zone.. I wana my mum to heal, i dun wish to see my mum suffer in her health. I wana to draw close to my mum.. Sometimes, we r like sisters, sometimes like enemies,both dun give way.. Can c how God put my family thru moulding...

Okay, i will stop bloggin coz now 9.57, then gg to off my com then 10pm loh.. c kai sze havent call mi... Bad gal.. haha

Lousy week..

2007-07-27T14:20:00.000+08:00

This week was quite a chaos week. Projects all along but that wasnt the main problem..

It is when my younger brother gets depress... and affect the whole family and it seem like it my fault.. sad wor..

Reflecting that i yet to do enough..No spending enough time with my younger brother, if not i have not comunicate enough with him. And the family seems to collapse because of certain cooments i have. it drew my spirit and make me feel condemn..

Always when i wana do more for god, god seem to put more tests in my life. This week, instead of spending time doing my porjects, i slept early and didnt wake up early to do my projects.

when things go wrong, i seem to go haywire.. my mood plunge to the pit and i dont seem to be able to care for people around me ..

Haiz, and i always wonderful why i always like tat until i read the daily bread on intimacy with god.. still pondering on the points that i read..

seek god with all my mind, my heart and soul!

stress nah... can overcome with GOD!!

2007-07-18T03:27:00.000+08:00

3.28am in the morning. wow, God u r great. first time so late, i m still awake. juz finish studying my international business test that is hold later.

Yesterdae was so stress with so many things. arhh! thank God that i kept praying n u sustain me..

learnt through this time that i have to already priortise my time! n use the time to share the word n decipher people! i know i can do with u GOD! jia u!
GOD people jia u!!!

GOD, i wana growth, growth!!

atc 3 07

2007-06-30T09:21:00.000+08:00

sunset!

campfire pit - noordin campsite.

mi with my group getting to knw each

other

cadets pitching tent!

My squad and i after camp!

reflect..

2007-06-30T09:09:00.000+08:00

Find that my relationship with god is stagnant. wad i hope is that i will get closer to god to lead my people. I want my spirtual life to be a level up.

Realise that i am different from last time where i would not want to fight for power anymore - is a gd thing. When i go back to my nan chiau unit, it reminded me that i going to glorified god in this area and not for my own.

Really have so much things to do daily, i want to priortise things to be effective.

THE 3 areas of fruit of spirts i would like to grow in is love, joy and self contol!

Yesterdae, (29 jun), my da gege -derrick gave me a card and a big fat candle for my birthday. I love the meaning of the candle where when i feek sad, light up the candle to see tat there always hope and this reminded me to god is the light and the way.

I realised that back to npcc, i am less cheerful because that i feel tat i havent let go certain things and this proves one thing tat i have to be constant in all areas of my life.

my pic---

2007-06-18T02:27:00.000+08:00

hmm, i was thinking that i didnt upload any pic b4.. so think uploading a pic that i took at my sch swimming pool. i like dere as it is a quiet place---where i sleep, reflect and tok to myself... hmm dere not alot of handsome guys wor.haha. i took pics at swimming pool as i was practicising my photography skills!

god, i would like to give thanks for having a gd dinner wif my family, able to complete the things that i need to , have a gd supper wif my elder brother to undestand him, thank god that there someone that reflect about aprreciating ppl in her life--that touch me.. seeing my caregp seving god together!

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growing tru probems!

2007-06-15T14:17:00.000+08:00

Dear Ace!

i finally update le!

This week is evanglistic service.. feeling excited.. The amostphere where every1 try their besz for god.

i am still try to get my friends to come to the service-unexpected valentine!

Recently, i have did alot self reflection daily. It is fun to reflect yrself as u are able to aware of yrself daily and to conscience about sins.

Problems are healthy for us to grow more! For me, when problems cum, my first time is why this happen? I realised that y i always question y are dere problems--- reason being that i do not want to acknowledge that the things or methods i use wrong.. similar mentality with many ppl- i would blame other things except myself. If not sometimes, i would feel inferior about myself.

Nevertheless, i see the light of every single tiny problems in my life! it helps me be a better person and understood the reasons y god allows these problems in my life. so glad!

knowing y things happen is great@

i will always ask myself the reason y am i do certain things and how my heart condition de..

god refine my heart !

Last wed, was caregp time! it was a combine caregp with wei hong caregp! the feeling of having more ppl in a caregp feels really great wor! great n long time of worship with god! the games was so interesting! We each haf a piece of paper stick to different part of our bodies. Kai sze will tell a story and we are to stick to different parther everytime. the hilarious part is when i stick with kok yan. My paper is at my feet and his is at his back n he has to knee down and i haf to lift my feet up..haha! i enjoy the game alot.
Yuhan's guitar has only 5 strings as eliton's fat finger has break it.. haha
I feel god's power strongly!

as i am blogging, feel tat there are so much things to blog..
but need to go out with kai sze to but bag le.

040307!

2007-03-05T14:15:00.000+08:00

hmm..so long havent been blogging already.

now having multimedia lessons.

yesterday had steamboat on the last day of new year. Felt love by family. father took intentional effort to prepare steamboat for the family.. Muack! Everyone contibution in the steamboat. i am incharge of cutting the ingredients. My younger brother lay the food. my elder brother started the chacroal. my family still use traditional chacoal to cook because it taste much better.. the steamboat has being with us for about twenty years already. my family is sentimental for things. my mother in charge of shopping for food.. yea..
super enjoyed eating the food! thank god for my family...

this week, alot of stuggles for me..

for my npcc, my spirtual life and looking afer people...

i am being challenged on saturday to do more for god.. to have a wave effect and not just droplets effect..

i hate challenging in my life because i am fearful for things. nevertheless, god wants to use weak people.. god going be with me through this entire to make me strong. he want to purify my heart!
god i want to desire u more and more. fill me with love!

continue to trust god

2007-02-16T09:25:00.000+08:00

i was delighted yesterday when melvin from the thailand trip called and told me that he and the other two guys can go for the thailand trip le... becoz initally they cant go and they need to pay $644 more than the rest as they are second time goers..
Intially, Everyone was vexed about the problem and many problems faced at tat time... and our solution was to raise as much as $ as possible...
Nevertheless, i trusted god all the way and believe him with all my heart tat he would solve the problem... i was super amazed that he let the 3 guys go for the trip by having the director of student affair director to pay the trip for them .. and this sum up to $2000. i was amazed coz the director was not nice initally. however god use him to help these guys. the director said that they can take their time to pay. if they dont pay, he take it as lose of $ or doing charity.. wow! so generous!

initally, i was disappoint with god not allowing me to go to the thailand trip BUT GOD answered my prayer by allowing the guys to go for the trip... they no need to worry about finance!

i so convinced that god has a purpose for me to be in spore!--- in terms of my family and growing me... thank god!

My brother was feeling low yesterday.. again becoz of phobia of studies.. yesterdae he came home early from sch as he was sick.. My father wa so sacrificial, he didnt work to accompany my brother. when my father do not work, he was not paid..

My brother affected everyone mood... my parents were super frustrasted.. i was also affected.
i juz kept praying tat my brother wouldget out of the phobia and to understand why he was going tru this..

it made me wana do more for my parents... hope that they come to know god soon and they would be joyful instead of having so much bitterness in their heart. felt heart ache to see my parents unhappy.. juz thinking tat they were unhappy for 40 over years make me wana cry..

spoke to mingxiu and cried over the phone... i will continue to trust god for my family..

orange blog--i like it.

2007-02-15T11:34:00.000+08:00

I am so so glad as i finally have my blog with help of joyceee! i had tried to create blog 4 times but not successful..
i always have problems with electronics. most of times when i touched it will spoil.

haha joyce said that she would be the first person to tag my blog..

i like my blog color! orange!!